| Location | Madrid, Spain |
| Age | 60 years |
| Date of Birth | 6/1947 |
| Date of Death | 9/2007 |
| Visitors | 279 since 03/02/2008 |
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Juana Hargreaves died on the 29th September at 06:36 from a Brain Tumor in the end. We were out in Madrid buying our retirement home in the mountains of the Sierra Grados Mountains.
She was the mother of 3 great kids now married with there own families.
Juana the strongest person i have ever met 12 years she had been fighting Cancer starting from Ovarian to Bowel cancer then small tumors along her spinal cord incapacitating her but she fought till the bitter end such a lovely women you would never meet.
Juana would help anybody do anything kept working through the Chemo and Radiotheraphy.
I was with her in the Hospital in Madrid and then the move to the Hospice holding her hand as she was dieing pleading with her not to leave me after 38 years together.
Juana was my reason for living my whole life was to be with her I can't imagine how I will go on without her.
Dear Juana i love you so may you now find peace and no more pain.
Bless you and thankyou for the wonderful years you made life worth living.
I hope it won't be to long until we are together again.
Your devoted and loving husband Alan.
xxx
reply to Jessica
I have just read what you wrote and understand what you say grandma may be gone but she will never be forgotten. You may think that i have forgotten her now but I haven't and her words come me from time to time which makes me smile like when someone says "sausages" she never could say it right she thought we were taking the mick but really loved the way she said things.
I still love Juana and always will and I always remember the times we had together us three, the places we went and even remember your first steps around our living room table. She really loved you alot we often said that we would have wanted to adopt you as you were like another daughter to us.
i know things seem hard for you with me getting together with Jude buts life moves on don't forget I had been with your grandma over 40 years its not something you forget take heart young one. we still love you!
when you need somebody to talk too....
Wow where to start. Seems like only yesterday i was on my way to Madrid to say what i had to say before you had to leave. I can remember it very well. The last words you said and how they touched my heart but although i can always here you in my head i can never find the right way to reply. Then i remembered how Grandpa created this page and how i've not been able to enter it since i last wrote. I know it sounds silly and i know you'll be watching me write this saying "Oh Jessica Mae" but feelings are so strangely expressed by some people.
I remember when you used to ring me on the phone and ask me "whats new?" and i never seemed to have anything to say but this time i have lots of news.
First of all me and Mum moved to Runcorn as she met someone and is now very happy. She is also due to have another baby so lots of excitement. I passed all my GCSEs and I'm now at college, due to start my driving lessons next month. I guess a lot has changed since you were last here but even though your not around i still feel the need to let you know whats going on.
Because regardless to how many people around me who i know care about me a lot, your still the person i need when i need to talk.
When you passed away i changed my ways of expressing myself. I find that if i have a problem its easier to shut it away, not tell anyone and deal with the situation myself. But these past couple of days ive come to realise that after so long it gets to the point where you run out of room to hide how you feel. I cant talk to people about whats on my mind because i cant word it right or it doesnt make sense but as im writing this now i can imagine you sat with me just like you used to do when i was a little girl. Sometimes i wish you were here to see whats happening but then i remember that your already watching every move we all make.
I know everything ive just said wont make much sense to anyone who reads it but i know you can understand me without questioning. I just had to get all of this off my chest and i must admit i feel like a stronger person for doing so.
I just wanted to say thankyou. I'm no longer a child an even though your not here, you've taught me some valuable lessons. I know how much of you is in me and im so proud to say that.
Still missing you as always and i hope to see you someday..
Lots of love...
Your Jessica Mae
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Thinking of you
Hi Juana
I watched the video yesterday of when Jack was born, Jack watched it with me and I told him all about you. We saw the footage of the first time you met him and held him, seeing that made me cry and remember how much of loss I feel not having you around.
A little while after Jack told me that he misses his Grandma Hargreaves and wishes he could see you. I've told him your waiting for him in heaven and one day we'll all meet again.
I just wanted to tell you how much me, Jame, Jack and of course Vince all love and miss you.
sending you all our love Linda x x x x
Thinking of you.....
Hi mum,
Today is mine and Linda's 5th wedding anniversay, we are off to Dublin.
The last time we went to Dublin you were with us, somehow it feels like you will be with us again.....I guess thats because I am thinking of you and missing you...
All my love
Vince x
Mums Birthday 15th June
Hi Juana, I'm sat here on my own thinking about you and your Birthday tomorrow. The family are all getting together tomorrow probably because we don't know what to do with our selves as your not here but we are thinking about you every day in my case every hour of every day life is so much emptier without you. I was told that it gets better with time I can't say that I've noticed every time i see a couple holding hands it reminds me that it should have been us walking into our old age hand in hand and it makes me angry that you've been taken from me.
We all Love you and miss you more than words can say.
I will always Love you and think of you till the day we meet again.
Your loving husband Alan xxxx
Other things..
Oh my goodness, shouting up for the ice cream man money - the cool colas and the frozen pineapple type thingy! I had forgotten those. I can still hear mum's voice saying 'yes daughter' when i used to ring her, that was always how she answered the phone to me. That makes me smile, also when i go into a shop and see chocolate brazil nuts, she loved them but only ate them at xmas time as a treat. I remember us shoe shopping, and swapping clothes always driving dad slightly bonkers. Going to Café Metro in town for a brew or a veggie burger. Making her proud by going back to university and graduating - sorting out my head after my wobbly early twenties, when things got tough i knew that she had faith in me that i could complete the course and my graduation day was as much as for her than for me. Talking about what amazing finds we'd discovered at Primark. Telling me i'd have to kiss a lot of frogs before i met my prince - and her getting to meet my prince before she died and telling me that Ian was 'sound' (imagine it in a manc accent), and giving us her blessing. An amazingly strong woman. I hate not being able just to ring her when i want, it really makes me very frustrated, and when we get together as a family there is a mum shaped hole that will never be filled. A real inspiration. She never suffered fools but was the kindest person you could meet. I could go on forever... I look forward to seeing her in the summerlands before we move on to our next life. xx
My mum.....
Well its been a while now but it doesnt quite sink in that i cant just go round and see my mum. I cant sum up in words what my mum meant to me and to my wife Linda and our kids James and Jack. For me though she is still here. You just cant erase 30 odd years of being somebody's mum....Funny thing is i remember her through the little silly things like seeing an Egg Custard in the supermarket (she loved those) or when im eating a danish pastry (she loved those too : )) thats what i mean, she is still here....because such a huge part of her is in me. What i would say was the most profound thing my mum ever instilled in me was an amazing self of self belief. I have become sucesfull in whatever i have put my mind to through this self belief she demonstrated. She demonstrated this in what she achieved in life against difficult odds, but most importantly, through the tongue lashing she gave my primary school teacher in parents evening when i was about 10 when they dared say i would never amount to anything. I still remember that when i go to work now at 34. I feel like my whole sucess so far has been built off the back of what she said that day to my teacher and what it taught me....My mum will always believe in me..... Thanks Mum that has really helped along the years : )
When i think back over my childhood i am thankfull for so many things that i remember. My third birthday party (i think i was 3 anyway) which i saw a big party table and lots of decorations all made for my benefit, and a birthday cake that my mum made...she always made ladybird cakes with smarties or chocolate buttons for eyes...(that makes me smile). Also when we were kids shouting up for money for the ice cream man....mum was always there for us. God i miss her.......i want you to know mum that i remember all those little things and thankyou for all the things you did for us as i know you did them all out of love for us kids....we have only turned out well thanks to the way you brought us up....you and Dad.
I could go on for ever as 34 years is such a long time but for now.....i hope there is life after death so i can see you again.....until then i will remember you and see you every day when i look at myself in the mirror. Thanks Mum, you ARE the best mum in the world......and always will be.
memories of a life time
My grandma and grandpa were always there for me and even though she isnt here they still are.
My grandma was always there since i was born. Every weekend i would go over and each time she would teach me something new. If it wasnt knitting it was baking and if it wasnt that it was what was going on in coronation street. Everything i know is what she has taught me over the past few years. She was more of a second mum than a grandma.
As the years went on i was still as close as what i was when i was small. They moved to spain but i still went over every year and it lit up my face when i saw her.
When they moved back over here i began to realise something was wrong and thats when i was told about the cancer. In a strange way this didnt bother me as much as you might think it would because i knew that my grandma was a fighter and that this would never beat her.
We carried on the way things were as i got older and even at 12 i stll loved seeing her and my grandpa nearly every weekend. Going on holiday, going out for days, teaching her how to use the internet and just watching plain old metro metro on spanish tv. I remember it all as if it was yesterday.
Then it can to the point were we knew there was nothing left. Everyone stuck together like glue at this stage in time. I even remember every last words she said to me that day i returned home from spain.
Although my Grandma is no longer with us she will always be with me in my heart. Noing that she was so strong and believed in everything makes me proud to be her granddaughter. Out of all the memories i have i wouldnt change any of them for the world. I love her so much and that will never change. Sleep well and never forget me xxxxx
A true inspiration
For the past 5 years I have been blessed with having Juana in my life, for me she was more than a Mother in-law she truly was like my second Mum.
Right from day one she welcomed me and my eldest son James into her family, she grew to love James and always treated him as her own, for this I am eternally grateful.
When I first met Juana the one thing that stuck out for me was her strength and courage, when Vince (my husband) first told me his mum had cancer and had been battling it for years I felt so shocked and sorry for Juana. But I soon learnt you don't feel sorry for Juana she wouldn't let you, she fought her illness with not only strength and courage but also with dignity and compassion for others who were suffering the same. For me Juana will always be an inspiration, she loved life and lived every last second of it, she had a capacity for giving of herself and her time to others and she showered her family with love. Not the hugs and kisses but with the things she did for them, it seemed her main aim in life was for her family to be happy.
My youngest son Jack is almost 2 and it breaks my heart that he will grow up without Juana in his life, but I will try my hardest to make sure she is always around him, by telling him what an amazing Grandma he has.
I also remember the laughs we had together and my world is now a much sadder place without Juana in it.
Amazing woman
I wish i could write something profound and poetic and worthy of my mum but i can't. Not a day goes by when i don't miss her and wish she was here, especially now we have a little one on the way, you always think your mum would be there to help you through your first birth at least and it breaks my heart i can't talk to her, but i know she helped us concieve quickly and i know that it was her time to go. My mum was my hero, someone i will aspire to be like for the rest of my life. Forever loved and never forgotten she lives on in all her childrenxx
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